Up ahead, I saw a sign that read Bill & BeaвЂ™s. I wasnвЂ™t sure what food I might find on this exit, but when I pulled off the freeway, I instinctively turned left. I could barely hear the honk of their horn over my music, but I saw the finger, telling me to have a nice day. I jerked the wheel to the right at the last moment and cut off a gold sedan. I was still ninety minutes from Enumclaw and realized I was starving when I saw the last Centralia exit in my headlights. I couldnвЂ™t find the emotional strength to get it over with and say the magic words: I want a divorce. I had tried to end our marriage ever since, with no success. вЂњIf you think it changes anything, it doesnвЂ™t.вЂќДЄnd so life went on. The divorce I knew was coming was just another in a long string of failed relationships stretching back thirty years.ДЇour years earlier, I had told my wife, Adinah, that I didnвЂ™t love her. I had been in my second marriage for five years, but it felt more like a prison than a marriage. At 46, I was slowly killing myself by eating too much, not exercising at all, and withdrawing from everyone around me. I was exhausted and unhappy, but that was normal. As I drove north on I-5, I turned the volume up on the CD I had just bought that dayвЂ“Yusuf IslamвЂ™s An Other Cup.

It had already been a very long day, but I wasnвЂ™t in any hurry to get home to Enumclaw.

I walked out of her house, across the familiar yard and into the rest of my life. Her tears streamed down her face and she looked away. вЂњWhen we can see each other again, if you still love me, IвЂ™ll be there for you. I went to her and put my hands on her shoulders. She was so lovely it broke my heart to look at her. It was possible I might see Dawn again at some future date, but I would never see this Dawn. This was the moment I had done everything to both cause and avoid. Hot tears ran down my face, but I didnвЂ™t care. вЂњThatвЂ™s it then,вЂќ I said softly, almost to myself. It was clear she wasnвЂ™t worried about Dawn wanting to see me in the future. вЂњFine,вЂќ Colleen said, eyeing me with contempt. IвЂ™ll agree not to see her for three years, but sheвЂ™ll be eighteen then and she can see me if she wants.вЂќ вЂњI know youвЂ™ve told me I can never see Dawn again, but I canвЂ™t agree to that. I took the wad of bills out of my jeans pocket and laid it on the table. I realized it was quiet and everyone was looking at me. When I felt her gentle touch, I couldnвЂ™t hold my tears back anymore. She came and stood behind me, placing her hand on the back of my neck. Either way, I couldnвЂ™t follow what everyone was saying.Дawn looked questioningly at her mom, who nodded her permission. Maybe it was the fact that I hadnвЂ™t slept in two days, or maybe I already knew how this was going to turn out. I needed to concentrate, but I couldnвЂ™t focus. I didnвЂ™t want to see her tears, but I couldnвЂ™t stop looking at her. You can follow Shawn's blog and see more pictures of the people and places in Feels Like the First Time at, and Shawn's Facebook page: /ShawnInmonwriter.Дawn was at the side of the room, crying softly.

He is married to his high school sweetheart Dawn and has five daughters, five grandchildren and two chocolate labs named Hershey and Sadie. Prior to that, he worked as a short-order cook, traveling T-shirt salesman, radio DJ, Cutco Cutlery sales rep, department store buyer, video store manager, crab fisherman, Kirby vacuum cleaner salesman, business consultant and public speaker. He has been a real estate broker in Enumclaw Washington for the last twenty years. Shawn Inmon is originally from Mossyrock Washington, the setting for his first book, Feels Like the First Time. No matter how much the world changes, some things, like timeless music, high school dances, making out in the backseat of a Chevy Vega, and of course true love, will always remain the same. Can the sweet bond of first love not only survive, but flourish?ДЇeels Like the First Time helps you remember what it was like to come of age and fall in love in small town America in the 1970's. Feeling he is harming her by being in her life, Shawn walks away from the love of his life, apparently forever.Дў006: After decades of sadness and mourning the girl that got away, Shawn has a chance meeting with Dawn that might change his life forever. Many people spend their life searching in vain for happiness, but he was lucky finding it at the tender age of fifteen.ДЎ979: Shawn and Dawn are forbidden to see each other. 1975: Shawn meets Dawn, his one true love, when she moves into the vacant house next door.

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